No More

You don't deserve my time, attention or energy.

Enough is enough! I realized that last nite, I'm not a fan of being asked to choose. You've asked me to choose since Day One! No - I refuse to make that choice. Hands down, I will not choose you ... especially after sending alts to my land and wasting my friends' time as they stand next to me during your melodramatic breakdown.
I've said my part ... you've said yours - your actions that started this fire fight will be the only memory I need. Also, thanks for the multiple blog hits! *smiles*

Entertain Me

I'm BORED! SL has become utterly boring for me ... its beyond dull.

Tiny Empires is chuckful o' lacklustery goodness - surely not like it use to be ... what is the deal with the new Trader schedule and now 40+ independent Kingdoms?! Geez, I even pulled out this old pic that I did when I first joined Sparta (funny that I didn't have a title then and still not now ... hmm oh well guess that's what happens when I left and returned back to Sparta).
Decorating the house is, well, completed.
Landscaping its still just as painful ... I keep moving the same palm tree.
Fishing ... gawd how many times can one click "cast" ... or F2. (I still sorta-not-really do tho ... glutton for punishment I guess.)

meh.

Shopping can be fun ... but only as "Chunk", my alter ego who is known to wonder the grid eating popcorn and wearing head-to-toe pink (basically its a bootie-shorts jumpsuit, pink sneakers and pigtails) ... oh and *only* with certain people... in the end no *real* shopping occurs, just the occasional popcorn throwing. (Potentially a pic of her shopping this weekend ... *if* you're lucky! hehe)

Maybe its time for a change... again. Status quo blows and is unacceptable.

Please ... someone ... entertain me!

That's sLife!

Since Tinman is offline tonite ... and no one will entertain me. I'm left to my own devices to plan n' scheme. Got my mind plotting out a photoshoot or a shopping trip... but they lost all their luster after about 2 minutes.

SL ain't what it use to be ... what happened?

Aging is only for cheese & wine

**RL Post Ahead**

I turn the "Big 3-0" today. Surprisingly its not as daunting as I thought. Yes its another day in my life but today is a milestone. Thinking back when I was a kid, I thought 20 was old ... and 30 was unfathomable. I guess I'm a relic in my child's mind.
Looking back on the last 10 years ... I did the college thing, landed a terrific job as one of the youngest traders, battled cancer, moved to the northern Jersey, married an amazingly wonderful guy, changed careers, bought and renovated a 100-year old home ... the list is endless. Who would've thunk that crazy chick who, as a child, endlessly played piano, rode horses and relentlessly snuck out of her parent's home late at nite ... and now daydreams of owning her own Inn and belts out every single song regardless if she knows the words or not ... yeah she's 30.

Oh, 30 is going to be a good year ... and my 30's will be a damn good decade!

*The pic me at 3 months*

My Little Black Book ...

... makes a great paper weight and something I won't be needing anytime soon.

Back! Miss me?!

I've decided that this funk/slump/crapola that has been hovering around/over/penetrating me has over-stayed is unwelcomed visit.

Today forward, I promise to ...
oh who I'm I kidding...
there's nothing to promise.

Its just me ...
like it, love it, hate it, leave it - its your call...
but I'm so back, its scary!

Can I blame this post on the intoxicating fumes of Insolence's latex? ... or maybe its the whip ... rawr!

finally

Take the road …
take the risk …
trust has always been there …
just not the courage to break down the walls ...
until now.

20-20

Last nite, I found out some rather core-shaking news about a very dear friend of mine. Thankfully they are ok now but I realized I wasn't there when this friend needed me the most. Maybe that's why it effected me so much.
I realize I'm stubborn and, potentially, selfish. As dense as I can be at times, it didn't take much to make me crumble when I heard the news about my friend.
I really did deserve the repeated kicks for my awful decision. I only hope enough time will pass that the wounds will heal for all of us. Miss you much guys!

Hindsight is 20-20